Saturday, July 18, 2009

Meditation, Boredom, and The Animals Mind

Some people have said that meditation can be quite boring and futile and that this creates frustration. Yet we dont seem to see this divided self, between intention and action, in the animal kingdom. Why is it that the animals appear completely content to 'do nothing', and we as humans have this sense of boredom and yearning inwardly?

The problem is the 'doing something'. The animals mind has a quality of being empty when they 'arent doing something'. We as humans, on the other hand, have created a movement in the psychological area... but it is a gap that can not be filled. There is no achieving psychologically; the achieving is an illusion that the mind has created, not realizing that it is a gap that can not be filled. 

On the outward... we can fill this gap. We achieve feats outwardly such as building a house, or obtaining food, but inwardly does this movement have any meaning? There is no 'becoming more' psychologically. Our attempt to achieve psychologically is division from what we are to an illusion of what we want to be. That movement from what we are to what we want to be is the essence of the divided mind. We have learned to meet our pain, our fear of the unknown with strife. We strive to be better or whatever it is. Meditation (can be) the realization of this... it does not matter, because it is observing; it is not achieving. It is not adding something, it is the awareness of that movement... and therefore that movement comes to an end. Not through strife, but it comes as a byproduct of being aware of that division. 

So meditation comes into being when it is observing this desire. And it may be that the mind has gone beyond observing that movement inwardly (that strife, conflict) and it is observing the ten thousand things (like the animals state[for lack of better word]). It is not biased. It is without a goal of achieving inwardly. 

Yes, thought has its place; even in the animal world. But they have not brought strife inwardly... in other animals it remains on the outward. Achieving inwardly is meaningless. Meditation is like the peels of an onion falling away. Achieving something inwardly, which is what you are trying to do, is conflict and the utter definition of division (in the sense of human conflict). 

So we must ask ourselves: Are we trying to become kung fu masters, or gurus, or whatever it is that we aspire to become in order to escape what we are? Or is it that we see all this disorder and out of the awareness of that disorder something else is born, which here, we are calling meditation. Animals (besides the human ones) do not aspire inwardly... they are empty of this movement. They have not brought achieving, strife, inwardly. Inwardly it has only created this division, conflict.